If you’re late for something, but will still be there for more than half of the event, go to said event. I had a small group early this morning (7:15) which I totally forgot about last night and didn’t set an alarm. I just happened to wake up at 7:05 am and went “Crap.” I got up, dressed in last night’s clothes, and headed out to the church. I say you should go to something late because of a couple reasons.

  1. Because of the picture above. Something about a cloud both blocking the Sun and highlighting it’s edge always makes me happy.
  2. You never know how your event is going to go. My small group this morning has met 4 times previously and today was the most meaningful. Thank you Callie, Carin, Sarah, and Brad.
  3. I’m sure there are other reasons, but I’m tired and a bit tipsy so… those other things aren’t coming to me.

The rest of the day went mostly well. Watched most of 3 movies (Kung Fu Panda, Finding Forester, and Me, Earl, and The Dying Girl), then decided I’d laid/sat enough for the day and decided to ride my bike. But first I wanted to adjust my rear derailleur (aka the mechanism that moves the chain from one gear to another on the rear wheel). It was a bit out of alignment, admittedly because of my tinkering, and somewhat long story short, I broke my derailleur. So, I went to the gym because I wanted to exercise and my first option broke.

Here’s my workout:

  • Warmed up with a 30-60 second deep squat hold and stretch of adductors, body weight squats, and 8 squats with an empty bar so 45 ibs.
  • 5×5 75 ibs squats with 3 L-sit pull ups between each set (L-sit meaning I put my legs out in front of me so my body resembles a L (or is it an L?)).
  • 5×5 95 ibs trap bar deadlift. I didn’t do any warm up sets, but I didn’t really feel that I needed to after my first set, so I didn’t.
  • 8! push ups (8! being set 1 is 8 reps, set 2 is 7 reps, set 3 is 6 reps… until you get to set 8 is 1 rep). And that last rep I went down as slow as I could and went up slower than normal.

The rest of the day was laid back watching B-99 and catching up on YouTube.

I hope y’all’s day was good!




A good day today. I asked my manager’s manager if he would let me work more and he said he was having a meeting with his boss and I was on the docket. So, hopefully I’m a fully employed guy in the coming couple weeks!

In other news, I had a good time having dinner with co-workers and it’s always nice when my manager takes care of the bill. Thanks Meech!

Finally, I’m a 26 year old man who hasn’t had sex. You could call me a virgin, but I dislike that term, so I don’t use it. You could also call me ‘prudish’, and maybe I am, but I’m a slight hypochondriac when it comes to sexual health.

Getting to the point, having two minds on something can be either illuminating or destructive. The illuminating part is saying ‘STI’s are a pain and I’d rather not have them.’ The destructive part is saying, ‘Having sex looks supremely awesome. Let’s fuck every woman we come across!’ The dichotomy between those two are what really destructs me. Part of me wants to have sex with every female I come across and the other wants to not do that.

And I don’t know how to resolve my dichotomy.

That’s all for tonight. Thanks for reading! I hope y’all had a good day!


Freedom of Religion

Otherwise known as Religious Freedom.

Google defines ‘Freedom of Religion’ as “the right to practice whatever religion one chooses.”

Wikipedia defines it as ” a principle that supports the freedom of an individual or community, in public or private, to manifest religion or belief in teaching, practice, worship, and observance.”

The first amendment (of the US Constitution) says “Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.”

Later in the same document, the US Constitution, this topic is addressed again. Amendment 14 says “All persons born or naturalized in the United States, and subject to the jurisdiction there of, are citizens of the United States and of the State where in they reside. No state shall make or enforce any law which shall abridge the privileges or immunities of citizens of the United States; nor shall any State deprive any person of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law; nor deny to any person within its jurisdiction the equal protections of the laws.”

So, in general, Freedom of Religion (aka Religious Freedom) means you’re able to worship any religion you choose in any place you choose without being persecuted (just because I like to work off definitions to make every thing as clear as it can be, persecution is defined as ‘a program or campaign to exterminate, drive away, or subjugate people based on their membership in a religious, ethnic, social, orracial group’ as defined by Dictionary.com).

Is that a good definition for everybody?… Yes?… Cool. Onwards we move!

These phrases have been cropping up over the past few years in State and Federal bills and coming out of politician’s mouths when interviewed about said bills. They say things like ‘things x, y, and z are impinging on my religious freedom’ or ‘we need to preserve our religious freedom’ implying that ‘thing x, y, and z’ are making their practicing of whatever religion they practice more difficult.

I’m not going to say it’s all coming from the politically and/or religiously conservative, but from what I’ve observed, many bills like this have been sponsored or written by said politically and/or religiously conservative.

I’ll be upfront (or more accurately, in the middle…) I’ll let it be known that I am a politically and religiously liberal guy. I enjoy learning about different religions and ways of thinking outside the confines of Western Culture.

Getting back to the topic, ‘things x, y, and z’ have been centered around gay/LGTB rights. First it was marriage equality and now it’s can trans people use the gendered restroom they identify as? There is a bill currently in North Carolina that’s getting quite a bit of attention recently. How that’s to be enforced is beyond my ability to imagine.

There are other protests to the ‘now’ point such as ‘this will make it so boys can just enter a women’s restroom and take creepy pics and/or rape females’. I will agree that the point is fair and is happening currently happening. There’s currently nothing to stop a male entering a female restroom other than politeness, common courtesy, and social sanctions.

I’m getting away from the topic of ‘Freedom of Religion’ again. My bad.

My question is… how does the gender/sex identity of a stranger impact the ability of a person to practice their religion?

Really, I’m honestly asking… how does the gender/sex identity of someone they do not know affect the person’s  ability practice their religion?

There are many ways the beliefs/thoughts/something of one person can impact another individual. Many of them have to do with evaluating or judging someone or something the someone has produced (e.g. grades on papers and performance evaluations).

Are the supporters of the North Carolina bill judging LGTB people to be inferior and thus shouldn’t have the same rights? Whether consciously or unconsciously? If so, I fear for the USA (I refuse to call citizens of the USA Americans because there are two continents that use the America name. So, at total of 26 countries citizens can claim themselves as American). If that’s the case, it’s not dissimilar to the race protests/riots. And I think we all know how that worked out. Though we still have a ways to go in that regard (you can say the same with women’s rights)…

I think that’s where I’ll stop for this post. Thanks for reading! If you have questions or comments leave them below either here or on fb. I hope y’all are having a good start to your week!



Persecution definition: http://www.dictionary.com/browse/persecution?s=t

Amendments: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Freedom_of_religion_in_the_United_States

Freedom of Religion non-USA-based: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Freedom_of_religion

Salem Witch Trials: https://www.google.com/search?q=salem+witch+trials&oq=salem&aqs=chrome.1.69i57j0l2j69i59j0l2.2172j0j9&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8


Finished my taxes! YAY! I’d been lazily avoiding them for 3 months so it’s about time I finished them.

Today was a supremely lazy day. Spent most of my day in my chair watching YouTube and basketball. At this point Oklahoma is my team. Virginia lost and I can’t support either Syracuse, Notre Dame, or UNC, so Oklahoma is my team. Oklahoma is playing Villanova so that’s why Oklahoma is my team at the moment. If Villanova were to win, Nova would become my team, but for now, Oklahoma is my preference.

It should be an interesting week upcoming regarding my future employment. I should know of 2 opportunities this week, so that’s exciting!

I hope y’all had a good Easter and a swell weekend,



What’s up friends?!

I don’t want to say anything until it’s officially official, but my job situation may change in the coming week(s) and it’s for the good. That’s all I’m going to say right now. When things happen I’ll let you know all of the info.

In other news, YAY! Oklahoma; let’s go Kansas, Notre Dame, and Virginia. I wouldn’t normally root for Notre Dame, but my dislike for ND is less than my dislike for North Carolina, so they get my support.

In other other news, between last week’s SNL and her acapella version of “Dangerous Woman,” I’ve become an Ariana Grande fan. I enjoy pop queens, but for whatever reason I didn’t giver her a listen. But I am now and I’m loving it.

Have a happy Easter,


Church is a big concept constructed

Of hundreds if not thousands of beliefs,

Ideas and levels of faith. Looking

At the beliefs, it is a wonder we

Can stop arguing long enough to

Give glory to the one we worship. We

All believe in ninety percent of the

Same thing, with the rest causing all this hate.


Want to learn about church? Go there, enjoy

The community and friendship that will

Take you in with open arms. It may be

A dysfunctional community but

It will love you, rejecting your past trials

Replacing it with love and fellowship.


I hope y’all like this. I wrote this (and all the poems in the coming weeks) a few years ago in a creative writing course at University. I still struggle at times with the Church at times, but I can’t deny it’s given me some of the best friendships one could ask for. So, I hope you enjoy this sonnet!


Got back on the bike today. Rode around 20 miles. I wasn’t planning on going too hard because I was still a little sore, but ended up going hard. I was doing good until I turned around on a round about. Then I was in a 20 mph head wind. I pushed it for about a 1/2 mile and then let off. There was another cyclist in the round about and we exited the round about at roughly the same time, me in front, and then I put in my big, 1/2 mile effort. I looked back and he was maybe 100 yards behind me at the end of my effort.

A couple minutes and maybe a 1/2 mile later, I hear the distinctive fast click of a bike. It’s the guy I passed at the round about. And what does he do? He pretty much free wheels it for another 1/2 mile (free wheeling being riding my coat tails so he doesn’t have to put out as much energy. You’re welcome random old guy). He finally passes me and I shut down. I was out of breath and needed to catch it.

I caught it over the next few miles and then I heard a car honk it’s horn twice in quick succession  at me from behind. I looked quickly and it was a red Camry. 5 seconds later it passed me with maybe an inch or two between me and the car. I don’t know how they didn’t clip me. Fortunately they didn’t and I just let out a ‘holy fuck’ as they passed.

It never ceases to amaze me how ignorant people can be. Cyclists have the same rights to the road as any car does. Cyclists are ‘moving vehicles’ just like and car, suv, trucker, or motor cyclist is, the only difference is that I’m providing all the power to my ride. So, I politely say ‘fuck you’ to the red Camry’s driver who nearly swiped me.

I hope y’all had a good day,



What’s up friends?!

Went to the gym today and did the same 3 exercises that I did on Monday; Chin-ups, Squat, and Deadlift. I changed how I did the chin-ups. Instead of doing weighted chins I did 1.5 rep chins. What that means is I pull myself up all the way, go down half way (upper arm is parallel to the floor), pull myself up to the bar again, and then go all the way down. That’s one rep. I did a total of 13 reps over a few sets. My squats and deadlifts were largely the same except my first two sets were at the weight I did all five sets Monday and then increased the weight for the last 3 sets. So, I did two sets at 45 ibs and 3 sets at 65 ibs for my squats. Then I did two sets at 65 ibs and 3 sets at 85 ibs for my deadlifts. I added an 85 ibs farmer’s walks at the end of my workout just to get my heart rate up a bit. Farmer’s walks being pick up a weight and walk with it. I did two sets of around 40 yards.

When I walked into the gym I saw the guy who interviewed me last week. We exchanged nods and I waited a little bit to talk with him, but he was taking care of someone, so I decided to just workout and see if I could talk with him later. Did workout as described above, changed clothes, and after waiting for him to finish with the person he was dealing with, I spoke with him. He asked how the group interview went and informed me he hadn’t heard anything about decisions being made. Apparently the hiring people are at a convention a couple hours away and won’t be back until Friday. I’ll probably know by early next week if I have a job. Here’s to hoping it’s a yes!

In other news, I visited my therapist today for the first time in five weeks. It was nice to see her again after so long. I have social anxiety and am on 50 mg daily of Sertraline a.k.a Zoloft. I’ve known her for 1.5 years and she’s the best therapist I could’ve hoped for (granted I’ve only ever experienced one other therapist, but I can’t imagine life without her. Even if we’re not seeing each other, I’ll always send her emails to update her on my life.

This is long enough. I hope y’all had a good day! I promise I’ll do more opinion/non-daily blog/thought stuff soon. I think Sundays are probably the day for those posts. We’ll see.



madi hinds

No child ever wants to see their parent/s cry. Almost a year ago now, my Mum’s tears woke me up early on a Tuesday morning. Not knowing what to expect, I crept down the stairs to find the rest of my family huddled around the dining table. Everyone was crying.

My Mum’s best friend, my unofficial Aunty had tragically lost her son in a car accident during the night.

I hardly saw my Mum for that entire week. She never left her best friend’s side. This was the second son she had lost to tragedy. We were still grieving the first.

We went as a family to the home one night. In the car Mum said to me, “Prepare yourself. This is a very sad house.”

You could feel the energy as you entered the street. It was almost as if the entire neighbourhood was in mourning. In the front room were…

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I didn’t make it to the gym today, nor did I ride my bike. That’s ok as I was on my feet all day washing and cleaning cars. My lats and rectus abdoninis are a little sore when pressed or in a stretch, my quads are straight up sore, and for some reason the long head of my triceps is sore. I’m a little surprised about that because I didn’t do any pushing or pressing yesterday. Whatever the reason, I must’ve used them at some point.

I will be getting to the gym tomorrow and may get a bike ride in as well.

A couple weeks ago my manger asked if I’d like to become a full time employee. I was a little hesitant because I was applying to other jobs, and am still applying to other jobs, so I didn’t want to commit to something for potentially 3 weeks. But it’s been more than a couple weeks and no offer so I’ve asked her if the full time job is still available. She’s going to check with her manger tomorrow. Hopefully it’s still open because I need the money (I can’t imagine why it wouldn’t be, but I’ll find out tomorrow).

Hope y’all had a good day,